31.1.09 | 11:24:00 PM

NAUFAL SO CUTE~~ haha.

& today's POP was awesome. but yeah, splitting headache spoils my mood entirely.

nevertheless, alhamdulillah everything went well.(:

| 1:33:00 AM

Oh my.
its 2.07am and im still wide awake~
tmr POP. cnt wait(:
and, Naqeah and Jiamin..
what founder history la blablabla~ ahahaha!
haha. they over excited with my first and only VI uniform.
am i excited? haha maybe.
cos im still wondering how to do drills in it.

Here's part of the convo~
Jiamin says: do u noe fad uni is gona be so cool?
Jiamin says: long skirt ehs!
Jiamin says: hahas
Jiamin says: i tink
NAQEAH says: really?!
NAQEAH says: omg thts so cool
Jiamin says: i also tink cool lohs. she wil b e 1st in e history!
...
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: Someone told me to wear something inside to cover aurat! lol
Jiamin says: hmms. u shal b a super gentle gal tmr. no big actions!
Jiamin says: hahas!
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: funny sia
Jiamin says: hahas! i also tink wad i said is funny! hahas!
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: haha dun wry
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: i jump up and down tmr
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: lol
Jiamin says: imagine fad so girly dere. walk small steps. hahas!
NAQEAH says: fad must take pics of you walking kay
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: lol
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: if i walk how to take?
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: lol
NAQEAH says: then ask jiamin to take
Jiamin says: i take! hahas!
NAQEAH says: must hor!!!
NAQEAH says: then take when she's doing drills!
Jiamin says: oh. tis is kinda diff cos i wil b in squad too.
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: lol!
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: hahaha
NAQEAH says: you're creating history
Jiamin says: hahas. i m e founder of e history. hahas!
Jiamin says: or rather we r e founders of e hist. hahas!
NAQEAH says: we must find a secretary
NAQEAH says: and defence minister!!
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: LOL!
NAQEAH says: hahahahaha
Jiamin says: we shal recruit EP.
NAQEAH says: okay she's taking which one ?
NAQEAH says: i think sec. cos she likes to nag
Jiamin says: yea! same idea
NAQEAH says: hahahaha
NAQEAH says: then defence?!
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: HAHAHAH!
[fadhilahmawaddaH] (: rainbow! says: badbad
Jiamin says: defence? hmms................. me as e founder, i shal recruit e members tmr. hahas!

and it goes on~
hahaha. they even create a club for me... haha so cute!

&Alhamdulillah.♥
I've finally realise the true meaning of life.(:

28.1.09 | 9:54:00 PM

Oh yeah! im back!
so, first day.. we went to Senai.

We dint do much. other than crazying around with the kids.

haha so we went on to PD.

The stay there was super great!

first time, for holiday we dint go much shopping but more leisure and relaxing.
we had banana boating, kayaking and watch sunset!

not forgetting.. family karaoke-ing!

haha so cool!~

Cuz, Dad, Cuz, Mum, Sis & 2nd Bro

Models~ haha macam fhm.

& its Busu's Birthday~

Stucked 2 hours. >.<

Met donkey today!(:
oops i mean daughter hahahah!

I have admired you from afar,

I have to confess what my feelings are.

But its our friendship that I don’t want to mar,

A rejection will also leave me a deep scar.

24.1.09 | 2:47:00 PM

Thurs, reached home abit late.
And i missed forum perdana at RTM1
oh mans, bro told me that he saw me in it too.
haha oh well, i was present as a volunteer for that event quite sometime ago.
i hope i can catch the part 2.(:

oh yeah. so today was 3rd mentoring session..
kak ana is not in my team anymore. haiz.
so today, i took care of the girls while abg hakeem guided the boys.

the girls so cute!! haha got one keep growling at me and keep ask me whats my age..
got the other one, very smart and ask me to teach the difficult method of solving the math qn..

talk alot2 of stuff with them.. then, found out that one of my mentees' birthday is same as mine.
so yeah. today went thru english passage with them then did maths revision.
didnt do much as the timing was inadequate.
during test, can see they struggled abit.
and nevertheless, they did quite well for their test.

i hope my passion for teaching will never fade.(:

23.1.09 | 10:54:00 PM

loved.(:

oh my..
i miss bestie alot alot!
we must meet up soon okay(:

& tmr mentoring in the morning(:
Depart to senai and PD at nite!
haha i want to burst in front of my cuz.. cnt wait! hahaha..
initially, i thot of bursting in car but, dad abit kaypo and i will also tend to be sleepy once mum start to drive..
so yea, we shall burst somewhere in private.
LOL, talk like playing with balloon.

haiz. my ankle is trying to be funny again~
ohoh. still got some accreds to clear soon..
hope it wont create trouble again.
Oh yeah.(:
and im missing 4427 too.




Let me sing you a love song,
About what I feel in my heart.
Butterflies can't find nectar,
Whenever we're apart.

You magnify my happiness,
When I am feeling glad.
You help to heal my injured heart,
Whenever I am sad.

You’re such a pleasure in my life,
I hope that you can see.
How meaningful your friendship is,
You’re a total joy to me.

You make me smile when I am low.
You're just a pure delight.
We talk a lot about everything;
You make my life so bright!

If not for you, I wouldn’t know
What true love really meant.
I’d never feel this inner peace;
I couldn’t be content.

It must be the power of love that I feel,
That ties me in bonds that seem strong as steel.
I could fight to lose, but I’d rather give in;
To stay trapped by your charms is how I will win.

I have to feel your tender touch,
I have to hear your voice.
No other one could take your place,
You’re it; I have no choice.

Sometimes I’m happy and cheerful,
Other times grumpy and sad.
Your absolute care never wavers,
Whether I’m grouchy or glad.

Sometimes I try to change you,
And sometimes I criticize.
But I feel something melting within me,
When I see all the love in your eyes.

And that is why, my d-ling,
Whatever else I do.
One thing is sure,
No matter what, I’ll just keep on loving you.

And as I wake up every morning,
I know it's you who brightens my day.
How many ways do I need you?
Every day, every way, come what may.

| 1:13:00 AM

Alhamdulillah, things goes on.
but im not back to the normal appetite yet.
hahas. since monday i was so worried but but but..
i lost 3kg in 4days. haha. good rite.!
should make me stress more. haha

and yea. going portdickson soon. oh well. not in the mood thou.
but, im just looking forward to watch sunset with cuz there.
so both can emo together haha!

& yeah. i didnt dare to.
but i asked dad about some stuff.
and he said, beramal soleh.
like daughter like father haha!
perhaps, when the right time comes.

would you want to be aladdin, dracula or male mermaid?

i think confirm aladdin XD. ahaha!

20.1.09 | 10:00:00 PM

i really dunoe where to start.
everything's getting very chaotic the past two days.
how can i create a change?

i think, im falling ill soon. keep feeling cold on the outside but feverish..
lips getting more dry than before..
but, i dont wish to be sick now..
hais.

when dreams came into reality.

but, is it right?

19.1.09 | 12:43:00 AM

tried the personality test.
ooh wells. haha im very lazy to read.. so just browsed through the whole page not in detail.

http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFP.html

but i cannot tahan laughing at one thing!
His Strengths; Can be very charming...
haha true la okay!

anyways. i took quite a number of tests before too, but cant recall the results.
hmm, only able to recall career which is teacher~!
insyaAllah(:

18.1.09 | 12:44:00 PM

Ya Allah,
Jika aku jatuh cinta,
Cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu,
Agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaiMu.

Ya Muhaimin,
Jika aku jatuh hati,
Izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padaMu
Agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu.

Ya Rabbana,
Jika aku jatuh hati,
Jagalah hatiku padanya
Agar tidak berpaling dari hatiMu.

Ya Rabbul Izzati,
Jika aku rindu,
Rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid dijalanMU.

Ya Allah,
Jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihMu,
Janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indah bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirMu.

Ya Allah,
Jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihMu,
Jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadaMu.

I took 6 years to find out the real problem.

so how long would it take to cure?

15.1.09 | 6:15:00 PM

oh my~
i want change blog song but myflashfetish spoil~
haiz..

oh wells, woke up by an sms from bestie~
hahaha. so yeah accompany her to clinic.
the wait was so-so. but her consultation, less than 1 min.
I just want start song on my phone, she come out alr. haha!

so yeah.. shes very sweet! sick yet still follow me go Clementi.
mum told me to try apply for clinic assistant around west coast area..
so yeah went there, but.. haiz~

forget it, i think i start only during Feb. cos after this week, i will be busy and overseas~
oh yeah... haha family gathering again!

and, HAIKU is fun~
haha makes my brain think and work actually..
but still not a pro like him yet haha.

anyways, went to religious class just now.
learnt about alam kubur and roh.
so yeah. & i have overcome my fears alhamdulillah.
Last time, since young.. im afraid to go to funerals or see dead people.
but after the lesson just now, mum & dad brought me to one of distant relatives wake.
and im ain't afraid anymore alhamdulillah.
wah.. last time scared ah.. till can cry like hell.. partially cos scared see the dead body.
but today everything went smoothly alhamdulillah.(:

well. i hope that whatever ive learn can be useful and can be administered into daily life. insyaAllah((:

see, i got concentrate okay~!

14.1.09 | 10:17:00 PM

My dreams I have continued to pursue,
Up high I tried to reach all the stars in view.
You stood by me all the way through,
Gave me hope that a better future will ensue.

Kept me grounded when too high I flew,
Urged me on when hopelessness grew.
Now I believe dreams can come true,
Because in my life there is you.

13.1.09 | 4:49:00 PM

oh my...
im seriously very sianned by staying at home and stone...

well, tried calling to several primary schools but yeah no vacancy yet.
and ive applied for NIE too.(:
im afraid next week mon - wed they have vacancy then im doomed.
cos monday to wednesday, im going to HQ got SFA course..

so yeah today, ive finished one of the books i borrowed yesterday and did some research on haiku poetry. but i still dont understand!
haha.

oh yeah. and mum told grandma bout my withdrawal yesterday.. she so cute can! call me and ask "you want get married alr ah?" haha & i can still laugh.. i doubt she knows im joining NIE.

11.1.09 | 7:31:00 PM

So many thoughts,
I don't know where to begin.
I'll start from my heart,
and what I feel within.

My lips are curved upwards,
I really don't know why.
My heart is just so happy,
I feel like I can fly.

Life has really been a pain,
but then I thought it through.
If I look at what I have,
life doesn't seem so blue.

I need the guidances from you,
to the right path that I will go through.
Perhaps, I need to be with you,
till then I know my dreams have come true.

Those words that had brighten my day,
never seems to fade away.
I am very afraid that one day,
you will turned and walk away.

But now I really wonder,
what made me feel this way.
But that doesn't really matter,
as long as these feelings stay.

With a smile upon my face,
I shall go to bed in delight.
And I'll wake up tomorrow morning,
with a smile just as bright.

You meant so much to me,
in fact, you still do.
from the bottom of my heart,
I have fallen in love with you.

8.1.09 | 8:42:00 PM

had fun today. although abit short.
thankyou(:

& oh yeah~
im becoming relief teacher.(:
haha. which school should i go to..(:?

6.1.09 | 10:25:00 PM

ECSTATIC~
its beyond explanation.

being over will lead you to harm bro, trust me.

| 12:21:00 AM

Copied from Hadi Sir.(:

here we go...on itunes
INSTRUCTIONS:1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
NO CHEATING!

How do you feel today?
Sedang Ingin bercinta (wants to love)- dewa
LOL!

What’s your outlook on life?
left outside alone – Anastacia
Haha. Not true.. I have great people around me(:

What does your family think of you?
what you got – Colby O Donis feat akon
PASSION~~

What do your friends think of you?
Love story – Van Fan (Fan Yi Chen)
Haha. They might find it true(:

What do strangers think of you?
Not in Love – Enrique Iglesias
haha maybe..

Will you get married?
keluarga penyayang (happy family) – In-Team
LOL~ !

Are you good at school?
Party People – Nelly feat Fergie
Haha! I never go party before.. lol

Will you be successful?
Life is wonderful – Jason Mraz
Haha! Successful~

What song should they play on your birthday?
Hot & Cold – Kate Perry
haha!

What song should they play at your graduation?
Closer – Ne-Yo
no comments.

The Soundtrack of your life?
Buttons – PCD
OMG~ very true. Song with a lot memories. Hahaha!

You and your best friends are?
Dance like there’s no tomorrow – Paula Abdul
Hahaha!

Happy times:
Sieze the day – Avenged Sevenfold
True~

Sad times:
Pemergianmu (you left? LOL)– In-team
Haha sad song.

Every day:
ada cinta (got Love) – Acha & Irwansyah
haha. Omg~

For tomorrow:
Nazam Berkasih (er, I dunoe how to translate)- Syura
LOL.

For you:
Can’t Live if living is without you – Mariah Carey
So sweet(:

What does next year have in store for me?
kuharap cinta (I hope love?)- Nowseeheart
Omg~ why all so lovey2 one,

What do I say when life gets too hard?
pocket full of sunshine – Natasha Beddingfield
I know that the sun is still shining.

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Ayat-ayat Cinta.(love phrases) – Rossa
Aww~ so sweet man~!

What do you want as your career?
Fall For You – Secondhand Serenade
Haha~ do I get paid if fall for someone? lol

Your favorite saying?
im yours – Jason Mraz
Haha~ should be im by your side~

How will I die?
Ocean Blue – Double D & BlackMoo (my friends(:)
In the water~~~

What is some good advice for me?
Way back into Love – Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore
Maybe..

How can I make myself happy?
Scared – A1
Haha, how to be feeling both at the same time.?

What song will they play at my funeral?
Setanggi Syurga (sometg Heaven) – Inteam
OMG~~!!!

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Break The Ice- Britney Spears
Haha! Quite true.

What do I think my current theme song is?
Lucky – Jason Mraz
SO TRUE~~!!!!



So cool! like most of the things is true.. hahaha~

5.1.09 | 7:10:00 PM

1) My friends- Jessie bestie(: , 4E6 clans, juniors, Alpha, Vip10/09, Apex mentors.(:
2) I’m listening to- Maksim leeloos tune.(:
3) Maybe i should learn- to make my own stand.(:
4) I love- RANDDY!
5) My plan- is withdraw from RP and re-apply for NIE or go SP.
6) I don’t understand- why parents seldom support their kids doing charitable / humanitarian works
7) I lost- nothing... haha(:
8) People say- I should make my own decision and go for my passion.(:
9) I'm missing- him.
10) Love means- trust and affection.(:
11) Somewhere...- i belong~~!
12) I'm always searching for- the right one.(:
13) Forever seems- to be the hardest if we dont trust one another.
14) I do not want to- lose the people around me.(:
15) My mobile phone- sony ericsson
16) When i wake up in the morning- i will look at my phone, smile and sleep again haha.(:
17) I get annoyed when- people take things for granted.
18) Parties are- er, i duno.
19) Today i- pass my evac accreds(:
20) Tmr i will be- withdrawing from RP.(:
21) I really want- to pursue my dreams.(:
22) I miss- him(:
23) What is your phone brand?- sony ericsson
24) What's the last 3 digits of your num.?- 554
25) What does the second message in your inbox say? -Doin work at home once again. U? (haha!)
26) Who was the last person you rang?- My sister~
27) Who was your last missed call from?- My 2nd brother~
28) What does the oldest message in your inbox say?- haha. too long and confidential(:
29) Who comes after J?- Jessie!
30) Go to your sent messages, see what the 10th message say - haha okay(:
31) Who is your network provider?- Starhub
32) How many messages are there in your inbox?- 119 sms from one person haha!
33) Who do you have on speed dial 3?- none.
34) If you're using prepaid card, how much credits do they have- $98.58.
35) Who is the first person who comes after C?- Clifton!
36) What do you have as your main ringtone?- Atainaakum - Shoutul Jundil Muslim
37) Pass this quiz to 10 ppl - haha no thanks!

4.1.09 | 10:33:00 PM

Today had Alpha outing again(: it was great.

okay. i miss you.

3.1.09 | 3:24:00 PM

Today went for first meeting session - ta'aruf with Irsyad kids.
Alhamdulillah I should say my mentees are great bunch. and im looking forward to working with Bro Hakeem & Sis Ana as they would be great guidance for me as im the youngest(: .
hmm, i chose to be in mathematics dept. so yeah, need to brush up on certain topics too.
i interacted with some of my mentees and was really amazed. at such a young age, they have to study 11 subjects.. power~
so yeah, i seriously hope that i would be of some help to this kids and ensure that they are satisfied with their achievements for PSLE insyaAllah(:

Commitments & Responsibilities

that I have now are much heavier,

& im going through it alone.

Oh Allah, please give me strength.

2.1.09 | 1:26:00 PM

oh yeah. finally after quite some time, the 6 of us manage to meet up again during new year's eve. we dined at Pizza Hut and slacked all the way. hahas. i should say that I had so much fun with you guys.(: we should go out again soon aite(;

hmm, school's starting next week, but most prolly withdrawing starts next week.. and theres alot of stuff going on too. like other polys open houses, accreds & date / meet-up? haha dinner with someone..
im looking forward towards it(:

thankyouAllah.(:

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