30.7.09 | 11:38:00 PM

strength.

| 12:32:00 AM

Yay! haha. National Day mood is back :)
i dont know why i always got the urge to sing the songs.
and for different age levels, i will pop in their class and sing different kinds of songs.

PG1 (18mths - 2yrs) - Chan Mali Chan
Nursery (4yrs) - Di tanjong katong & Singapura oh singapura
(taught them actions and melody from piano..)
BASC (7yrs & above) - Where I belong.

And nursery loves to sing when im playing the piano. they picked up songs super fast.
in one day, i taught Singapura, im a little fishy and kookaburra.
and when i finished playing fur elise,
connery said, "teacher fadhilah, i want that banana song again!"
So cute! and we had a show and tell session. i love it.

Yay! sudden happy mode.
maybe becos hes going to work in mum's workplace tmr. ? (:
haha. i told mum to send me to work tmr,
cos he'll be there as well and i cannot let him feel weird haha XD.
the best part was, "Takpe dhila, mak boleh jaga menantu.~"
(its okay dhila, i can take care of my son in law~) haha.
and dad reaction was, "aper ni, both also you want?"
haha. and i just say,"i take the first one. let sis take him~ hahaha!"

oh yes. and if i have a pet, i'll name it Riddz. (:
actually Ritz leong K1 gave me the inspiration. basically, hes my darling in K1.
haha, it happened when i raised my voice because all the kids made alot of noise while watching Little Einstein, when suddenly Ritz who was standing gave me the innocent look
and said, "Wo ai ni.." haha melts melts. everytime he see me, he'll confirm hug and say wo ai ni.

Fill in the blanks: _ _ _ _ :)

29.7.09 | 11:54:00 PM

Love. :)
imissyou.

| 12:08:00 AM

SubhanAllah. :)

26.7.09 | 10:53:00 PM

This..

Or This?

hmm, $240 each. haha i'll decide when the right time comes. (:

| 8:41:00 PM

Keighley Chua & Shantell Wong.
oh dear, im missing them. ):

& now, haha im starting to play the piano.
hmm, killing two birds with one stone.
I have plans to make my lessons more interesting and
at the same time learn something new.

Alhamdulillah, I know how to play
Kookaburra, Ode to joy, I'm a little teapot, Are you sleeping,
Six little Ducks, Mary had a little lamb and Fur elise. (:

hopefully I can learn more, insyaAllah.

| 4:52:00 PM

| 1:52:00 AM

Janganlah terlalu mengharapkan yang manis saja dalam hidup ini,
kerana seringkali yang manis itu menyebabkan sakit perut.
Dan jangan pula takut menghadapi yang pahit,
kerana biasanya dalam yang pahit itu
terkandung ubat yang mujarab.

-http://cahayamukmin.blogspot.com

that sudden feeling of lost reappear again.

22.7.09 | 11:43:00 PM

Oh dear, Im missing Randdy very badly.
if only he's still here.

Randdy listens to both my joy and sorrow.
and he likes massages. and sometimes he tends to bite the
cage or running like mad boy whenever he have mood swings, haha.

Oh wells, I do have intention to buy a new pet. But, my dad he dislikes pets.
My siblings and I have brought pets like kittens, rabbits, guinea pigs, hamsters before.
so far, only Randdy stayed the longest.
I adopted Rachelyn and Ray from neighbours and friends as both have illness.
Furthermore, I will be teaching on Pets next week.
Thus i need to bring either a hamster / bunny to work.

oh dear. bunnies are cute. hamsters are cute too.

hmm, maybe i can use this as a reason to adopt a new pet. ((:

| 12:21:00 AM

Numbers are significant in my life,

& has the ability to make me grow stronger and braver.

Alhamdulillah ive accomplish it.(:

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Watched Harry Potter with Sham and sis.

haha! an achievement; I didnt doze off

although the medicine i consumed caused me to be drowsy and sleepy.

maybe becos my sis keeps telling me whats going to happen next. >.<

@#$ - (:

20.7.09 | 11:16:00 PM

Keep your face to the sun,

And keep the pain inside.

Run from the lies and indignities,

Yet convince yourself you tried.

19.7.09 | 2:34:00 AM

Busu's wedd is great.(:
haha. me and sham were the receptionist. haha!
its so cool. like me and cuz can like talk about anything and everything.
tepak sireh is nice place. cosy, very cool. but, yeah not suitable for elderly and small children.
the stairs is so steep and i pity my great grand aunt. keep going up and down for solat.
haha. alhamdulillah everything runs smoothly although theres like minor hiccups here and there,
although its a short and small event, it really have brought the family together.

esp when some of the cousins who will only meet like once a year during Eid, and yeah all grown up. i just miss those times me, huda, kak nani, sham, apit and my 2nd bro.. we can just like play kahwin2 on stairway at geylang serai, my gramps place. and even haf sleepovers and haf hours of tekateki session and ghost stories.
everything's different now. kids nowadays play PSP. they dont socialise with their cousins much.

then towards the end, haha! sham told me to take out the corsage. so i was like lets take an informal pic. and yeah i thot of jumpshot too.(:
but spoiler sis; "kak, roboh nanti.!" so mean~!?

hopefully aunt will stay happy and i want to have a baby cousin haha! i also had promised to take care of the baby for her. =.=



im upset. i am not those up kind.
even if i am, i dont want to be labelled as or even act as one.
and, i know my priorities, whats more school's starting real soon.
im sorry i wont fall for your trap. :)
i can sense fish and prawns eversince day one.
& im not desperate. haha.

| 1:41:00 AM

its simply wonderful. :)

18.7.09 | 2:26:00 AM

Whenever you are feeling sad

Your eyes fixed upon the ground

You need someone to cheer you up

To turn your frown upside down

When times can get real rough

You need someone to lift your chin

Or tickle you 'till you can't breathe

Or 'till you simply grin

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Tomorrow's Busu's wedding ceremony.

Hopefully, everything including Sham's and my duties will flow smoothly.(:

& yeah, im looking forward to it. I'll upload pics aft the event.(:

blue,blue.

and yeah mum's been discussing about shifting house.

perhaps, after secured a career in islamic tarbiyah kindergarten.

that is after my 2.5 yrs course.

and also, maybe after Sister complete O levels.

oh wells, i want to object cos, its a waste of money.

especially our life is complete now.

so lets just save up for future use.

but, this thought is only agreed by my dad. haha! he objected too.

4 against 2 hais.

and sis can still say, confirm anak bapak.(: hahaha!

| 1:44:00 AM

Open your eyes and come with me,

To a place with dancing bumble bees.

A turtle flies, a dragon roars,

A catfish meows, and a lion snores.

We will fly a kite and eat ice cream

We'll travel far to explore our dreams

Go where you like and really have fun

We'll dance and play till the setting of the sun

16.7.09 | 10:59:00 PM

The first picture, I wasn't scolding him. haha!
I was teaching him elephant song.(:

Xavier baby was uber cute can. He cant talk but he is able to "ehhehh!"
haha! then, today i asked him, "Xavier, is mummy fetching you today? if yes, nod.."
& he nodded. haha!
then as i was busy sending off my nursery kids one by one, he sat on the chair waiting patiently.

when i came back, he "ehhehh" at his pants.
haha as i expected, passed motion.
then when bathing him, sang "itsy bitsy spider"
he followed by making the actions.(:

then when i want to put on his pampers, he pointed on the sides of his bag.
and open up to take out the aloe vera gel.
haha. and he point to me which part to apply.
then, after applying, i asked "is it here? if yes, nod"
& he did again.((:

im loving this moment.

12.7.09 | 10:28:00 PM

Its been sometime since we had a proper family dinner.
So we dined in at breeks for angah's Birthday Celebration.

Woot! just as me and mum had talked about marriage yesterday.
Guess what. Today,
Abang Long brought back my future sis in law.
Now my parents like interrogating her.(:

she seems nice. haha. & mum's reaction so cute.(:
Dad's reaction. cuter.(: haha esp when he sujud syukur for having daughters like us.
he wanted me and mum to help sis in law to right path.
hopefully i could help insyaAllah.(:

and dad, finally asked me a golden question.
haha, alhamdulillah, apparently he was very delighted with my answer.(:

Thank you Allah for bringing us together once again.

| 5:44:00 PM

My lips are curved upwards,

I really don't know why.

My heart is just so happy,

I feel like I can fly.

Ya Allah, aku rindu.

| 2:48:00 AM

Oh no, Ive been throwing up for 3 times.

I really dont know the cause.

Probably its the gastricitis med or I ate something which i cant eat?
oh dear. nauseousness make me feel weak.

the other half, missing.

10.7.09 | 11:48:00 PM

Love.

8.7.09 | 1:37:00 AM

found more pictures from Kak Hajjar and Kak Hamizah's NUS trip to Yunnan.

If only im given this opportunity, I'd be glad.(:

I yearn to visit the islamic populated area in all countries.

Esp for third world, I really want to help in any way i could.

As I browsed through, I had mixed feelings and thoughts.

I could feel the joy and sorrow.

I could sense love too.
If only I could leave Singapore for good and rebuild schools and teach them.?

Its if there's low or even no income at all.

Because, I value sincerity.

but what if my family object?

7.7.09 | 11:54:00 PM

Caring & Sharing

From the time that we met,
I knew you’d always be
Not just a caring friend
But a sister to me.

A shoulder I could cry on,
A helping hand in times of need,
A cheerleader to lift me up,
My angel in both word and deed.

We told each other secrets;
We giggled and we cried.
We shared our joys and sorrows--
We were always side by side.

We have a very special bond;
I knew it from the start.
You’ll have my love forever--
We’re sisters, heart to heart.♥

| 8:51:00 PM

Ariel.(: haha! whenever she sees me, she will wave and say "Awu!"

hahaha! cos when she first time come to school, she keep crying and she only listen to Yang.

So whenever Yang laoshi says "Awu! an qing.!" haha. she will keep quiet.

thats why when i come into PG after a day with nursery, she will always say that.(:

so that i wont forget her maybe? (:

BABY!

Aww, my daughter's bday yesterday and I didn't get to celebrate):
haha she see me early in the morning and cry badly.
cos i was wearing a facial mask due to throat infection.
haha i love you keighley.(:

(((:

| 12:07:00 AM

I wish I had a magic wand,

To make it go away;

I'd wave my scepter over myself,

Until I am okay.

I'd think good thoughts;

I'd transmit healing vibes;

My wand and I would surely beat

Whatever the doc prescribes.

But there is no magic scepter,

Thus, I cannot cast a spell;

Just know ______ often in my thoughts,

And hopefully, I'll soon be well!

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otitis media. i cant hear. ):

Went to Ar-raudhah clinic on sunday.

but the antibiotic prescribed causes side effect.

severe diarrhea, rashes and vomitting.

Thus today, i went to polyclinic and got referred to specialist at JMC tomorrow.

and someone still can say;

"You should take care of yourself. if not how to take care of _______________ ?

hehe. but ya must take care." >.<

but yeah.(: haha! thanks.

4.7.09 | 8:45:00 PM

MasyaAllah, saw these kids in Kak Hamizah FB.

It has been my wish to adopt orphans from these countries

and treat them like one of my own.

Maybe one day, InsyaAllah. :)

| 5:42:00 PM

Oh no. im having BD now, keep wheezing too. ):

& My dear farihah omar said;" Welcome to my world." =.=
and she can still call me dumdum.
She should call angah that instead la.
Cos, angah is so noob that i need to teach him how to polish his boots for NS.
When in the end, i polished both pairs for him. >.<

anyway, thankyou Sis for the call.(:
although my voice sounds very weird, haha.
yea, everything's written.
Ultimately, i have to make my own decision.
& thank you for everythg, Hid.(:

3.7.09 | 11:54:00 PM

ohno.
sudden cases of HFMD in the centre again.

and im falling very ill.
speechless and high fever.
Yang Laoshi asked whether I am very stressed out taking the nursery.
the preparation of worksheets, lesson plans, WAPs, teaching etcetc.
Or whether anyone bully me. Cos she realise the drastic change.
Even Principal Doris was shock to see me after my 2 days "quarantine".
Is it really visible?

perhaps, i just need to stop thinking for good.
Ya Allah, give me strength, please.

| 1:39:00 AM

oh no. I cant stop spouting nonsense

whenever im lack of sleep.

I usually do that to sis. obviously she ignored.

but now, its different.

I shouldnt have being so random suddenly.

oh no, im sorry if i'd have hurt you.
omg. dy, over. ):

2.7.09 | 6:57:00 PM

Alongside the window,

Rain drops dangle.

Inside a marble tomb,

My story untold.

Pale stars trail behind,

A concealed path.

Memories are erased,

Leaving no trace.

| 4:12:00 AM

____ is when you hold your ground,

When he's not by your side.

You ____ him and see him for him,

Even though he lied.

____ is when you get closer

To family and friends.

When he has made you stronger,

And gave you the cure to mend.

____ is when you give him space

And room to breathe.

When he looks to you he realise,

That you're the one whom he should believe.

____ is when you mean so much,

And try your best to make him see.

When you take the pain of being put down,

You are still happy.

1.7.09 | 4:45:00 PM

You make her smile, with every word you say.

Even when she is sad, you always seem to have a way.

You made her forget, the bad things going on.

You made her want to stay strong.

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Had a great time last nite. thanks to bestie, hayaya, randy & cheesekueh.

haha. surprise party. XD

and yeah, its the thought that counts and thanks alot guys.(:

Im on LOA today and tomorrow.

oh dear, Im missing my nursery already.

yesterday, haha as I was teaching them a new song,

Gene came to me and said that she wants a hug. haha!

and yeah, I hugged her when suddenly the whole class ran to me and hug me.

haha. went breathless for awhile.

Gene is very cute. her imagination always run wild. as in WILD. haha

she can come to me and say that dinosaur bite her leg..

then when she do drawing, and as I was assessing, she pointed to her drawing and say,

"this is a bear, his head is eaten by crocodile."

shes very cute.(:

and whenever she woke up from her nap, she will confirm be very teary and suddenly hug me.

haha. my class is divided into two. Angela group is called strawberry. mine is Sunflower.(: haha!

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ohoh. alot work to be done by friday.

and zoo with my nursery on the 14th. (:

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Dear Confidant,

Last nite lengthy chat made me reflect.

I know you are helding back something that you wish to share.

but, you are afraid I might be hurt, or even hurt you.

you tried to convince me to hang on and reappear only later.

but, will I still have the courage to? moreover, memories depleting..

Im much happier now.

and when you ended with "I will be chatting with you soon, wont I?"

I know that something's amiss.