31.3.09 | 9:46:00 PM

needless to say,
im enduring.❤
Thankyou Allah for the strength.

30.3.09 | 3:09:00 AM

oh wells,
went for Dinner and Dance this evening.
all praise to Allah, my childcare branch attained an award.
hopefully, all of us will be more enthusiastic to work for the kids.(:

& masyaAllah, ive lost my handphone.
please do not contact me until further notice.

DND pics would be uploaded soon.

23.3.09 | 9:51:00 PM

Tragedy strikes; one after another.

When I thought that my days would be brighter with his presence,

I was wronged totally.

He left the school so suddenly today.

Just because of some misunderstandings.

& His last words made me much stronger.

Jaden: DiDi Love You, JieJie. (hugged & kissed)

and tears which I had been holding on to for so long, flows.

22.3.09 | 2:51:00 PM

random thoughts.

So many thoughts,
I don't know where to begin.
I'll start from my heart,
And what I feel within.

Tears poured down,

When his words came out.

Everything he said,

Was just another doubt.

He said he was never good enough,

Not even for her.

And now her dreams,

Flew by broken by a slur.

She still have feelings,
Which would never changed.
But when he suddenly left,
Her life was re-arranged.

One tear at a time,

Stained her face.

No one knew she was so fragile,

Like a thin piece of lace.

She used to cry,
So many times a day.
But lately those tears,
Have been fading away.

She stared at the knife,

As a tear hit the ground.

Would she dare to use it,

When it once spread her feelings around ?

Yes, it's been hard,
But she's getting back her life,
She have even managed,
To put away the knife.

She said, "I have found someone,
Who's right for me,
Whom have yet to love me,
But let me be all I can be."

Yet the thought of him,
Is tearing her apart.
But he will always have a special place.
In her broken heart.

Does she still love him?
Yes, she still do,
But another part of her,
Is getting over you.

She just wanted to be with him,
But now he is gone.
And the time has come,
For her to move on.

You meant so much to her,
In fact, you still do,
From the bottom of her heart,
I am still in love with you.

21.3.09 | 11:54:00 PM

This picture really touches my heart.(:

oh yeah! im going to Shah Alam next weekend insyaAllah.

one of my relatives very ill. hopefully, have time to meet ibu before going for pilgrimage.

& mama too.(:

& this baby is cute! hahaha! im missing JADEN LIM! haha.

imagine this conversation with a twenty month old kid.

Me: Jaden, do you love me?

Jaden: *nods nods*

Me: Faster2, Jiejie want hear barney song.

Jaden (stands and face me) : " I 'er' u, U 'er' 'ee'..

so cuute! and keeps going on and on until the part hugging

and kiss which he will do and say it clearer haha!

then 5 mins later,

his sister Chloe walks past.

Me: Bye Chloe, Jiejie bring Didi home.((:

Chloe: No, I bring Didi home!

Me: Jaden, u want follow Jiejie home??

Jaden: *nods!*

Me: Jaden, mummy & daddy where?

Jaden: OM! (Home)

Me: You sure?

Jaden: Yesh!

Me: Then who is that?? (point at window.)

and he ran after his dad XD. haha! Jaden's Dad is uber good looking.

no wonder both kids pretty and cute!

see.

think.

cry.

wait.

20.3.09 | 10:19:00 PM

full of hope.
insyaAllah(:

19.3.09 | 11:20:00 PM

masyaAllah.

Didnt expect that sms to be sent out.

I just thot it was a dream.

im sorry, im sorry, im sorry.

i really dont know what to do now.

Ya Allah, help me.

Its deep & I need patience and You.

18.3.09 | 11:51:00 PM

i love you,
you love me,
we are happy family.
with a great big hug,
& a kiss from me to you,
wont you say you love me too?
- barney.

Jaden just love this song XD
when I start singing, and it comes to the hugging part,
he will run after me.(:
then, the kiss.. haha! worst. esp with the presence of mucus and saliva XD
& thank god, hes picking up words. hopefully, im able to help his sis as well(:

oh yeah. yesterday went to flyer with Naqeah, XiaoLi, Yu Ping and the sweet couple, Sarah and Gin Yong.
super fun! haha~ pics would be uploaded soon soon.

lethargic, very.

alot noticed the change.

hopefully you too.

having dreams which occur.

makes me more weaker.

& when should i stop?

15.3.09 | 11:17:00 PM

tried something out of sian-ness.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Results:
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

| 2:03:00 AM

When everything else fails.

I know I still have You.❤

13.3.09 | 11:47:00 PM

Went out with bestie to secret place & reminisce bout things.(:

i love you!

& Randdy passed away.

im not in the mood to do anything currently.
insyaAllah, I should be getting over this soon.

12.3.09 | 9:30:00 PM

Woot! im so in love with kids~ hahaha!

but, need to go checkup and take blood test. oh man! im gonna die~

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had a conversation with zachary & Thea Huan from K2.

Tuesday : Zach & me

Zach: Teacher Dhi, why you eat using fingers? *Stares widely*

Me: haha! Cos, cannot use leg.

Zach: *still staring*

Me: Dont worry la! Not dirty. I got wash hands with the PGs.

Zach: *stares even more*

Thursday: Thea & me

Thea: Teacher, why you never use forks and spoon?

Me: Nah, I dont like.

Thea: Teacher, you forget to buy forks and spoon isit?

Me: XD. yea.

hahaha! kids nowadays ar. nvmnvm. patience is a virtue(:

thenthenthen, one of BASC kid asks me question last week.! cuter~!

Nicole: Dhi-Jie, lets play guessing game!

(after 20 mins playing games guessing people surnames)

Nicole: Dhi-Jie, how old are you?

Me: im 18.

Nicole: Dun lie.

Me: >.< !

Nicole: cos Ms wendy also say shes 18.

(** Ms Wendy is the principal of childcare previously XD)

Me: OMG. shes like 30 can!

Nicole: oh okay.! well jie, can you tell me more about your life?

Me: Er, o.O! haha! (dramatic.)

& shes asks the exact same question today. she misses me too(:

a very cute primary 1 kid.

yays! tmr going out with bestie and got FA duty in the morning. hmm, gonna miss them loads.~!

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Alhamdulillah, after work, I went for Apex camp meeting 1 yesterday. haha! Bro Ikhsan put me incharge of Safety together with Bro Aizat and Bro Abbas. need to find more man & woman power.(: Hopefully, everything goes smoothly, InsyaAllah!

Im really looking forward to the camp which will be held in June. Im missing my mentees now.

& yeah, proposal time(:

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MasyaAllah, I had a nightmare last night.

It was kinda scary, but with Your presence, I went through it with patience, alhamdulillah.

To me, mimpi bukan permainan tidur.

There is a reason why He took our Roh and show us certain dreams.

Everything is written before life even begin.

I have been thinking about the dream whole day.

Hopefully, I would be able to understand its meaning soon.

& alhamdulillah, at the very least, Ive got to meet You in my dreams.(:

9.3.09 | 11:15:00 PM

Rayn's "i lurf you, jiejie" made my day brighter than ever.(:
iloveyoutoo.❤

8.3.09 | 3:45:00 PM

his smile made my day.(:

أنا حقّا أحتاج أنت

أنا سأنتظر ل أنت

أنت الواحدة ل ي

يستطيع نحن كنت مثل نحن استعملنا إلى

4.3.09 | 11:52:00 PM

Found this vid on gary's blog. & yeah i really feel better now (:

| 6:50:00 PM

haha! found out that Lugan Sir work the same place as i do XD cool!
& i want get new phone.(:
save up! haha!

oh yeah.
treasure lives and people around you.
you will never know when you / your love ones would say goodbye.

------
Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand

1.3.09 | 8:31:00 PM

i came across something
hmm a guidance from Him i suppose.
well, i think ive just lost something.
perhaps, it might be a test for me.(:
& i realise its too late. where'd i go wrong, again?
i really wonder.

| 3:07:00 PM

Yay!
im officially voiceless now. seriously had loads fun. but still feeling uberuber sick~
headaches incurable. ate painkiller but nvr work. so yeah, in the morning made myself strong and go for NDP selection. haha not bad ey. quite okay, but slight giddy only. haha! still got time take pic with jiamin XD.
then went to lunch and condition gets worse.


so mum fetched me from woodlands civic centre and we headed to bibik's place then silat place then busu's place. had kenduri for late grandad and grandma. & naufal is SUPER CUTE!
he turns 3 yrs old as of today and he cannot speak well.he usually likes to hang with guys but dunoe why yesterday reach my aunt's place then he sit on my lap. &! what i love the most is. he love the letter 'D' for example, shishi (pass urine) = "DiDi" and kakak (sister) = "DaDa''
cute rite! i love him to the max.! then keep asking if he wants DiDi XD.
haha! got ulterior motive one XP
i think his other sibling, ahmad firdaus also have same preference(:
haha! dora the explora = doda the exploda. XD
they seriously cracked me up till im voiceless today. i love them.(:
not forgetting cuz, for the cute penguin from taiwan.

so yeah! happy birthday to bibik & naufal~ haha!

Anyways its a start of a new month. hopefully i would be able to start things right insyaAllah(:

you told me never to assume.

hence, i shall not draw any conclusion.

but to just observe and accept things as it is,

you as you are.