30.12.08 | 5:57:00 PM

I love him alot mans~!
haha. his name is randdy and he is turning 2 years old soon
im really afraid if one day i wake up and see him lying motionless in his cage.
cos he showing some symptoms just like my 2 other adopted hamsters. but i love randdy the most. there was once he went missing when i was overseas and i cried for like 5 hours non-stop. then realise that he was in the kitchen.
i still remember there was once i went for poly forum camp for 4d3n and when i reach home, he squeaks. hes very smart but hes frailing. hais. his eyes swell abit. i should spent more time with him and send him to vet soon.

So yeah, mum disallow me to go for primary school outing ):

so stuck at home and cook~

it has been such a long time since i cook. perhaps 1 and half months.

busy with VIP and stuffs. so yeah cooked macaroni.(: haha.

theres always this usual saying that if a girl can do chores and cook, shes eligible to marry.

oh well, i think marriage is more than that..(:

do you agree?

i fell in love with you

for who and what you are.

but not how you are.(:

29.12.08 | 1:14:00 PM

oh yeah~ im back!.

school's starting real soon. & ive missed alot.

The past weeks of unofficial and official breaks i had from school was awesome~

maybe its because i pursue my passion..

yesterday, mum and dad fetch me after ITP. they asked what do i have to gain.

and my answer was happiness. they may not support me etc. they do not support me going to RC since an incident which seriously change my impression of what RC in poly was in the first place. but aft joining as instructor, everything changes. ive made more great friends and seniors.

and alhamdulillah, ive found my real self in the process. haha! during ITP, i had loads of fun. and during last day, shuying even said. what if today is the last day we all meet as VIs? come to think about it, life's unpredictable at times.

MAAL HIJRAH

thanks for all the wishes that i received.(:

hope all our doas come true, insyaAllah.

anyways below are some pictures taken this week (:

Bestie outing!

Family Gathering!

VIP retreat. (only take 2 pics):)

24.12.08 | 10:15:00 PM

ahh!! my camp report is all gone, dateline is tomorrow 2359
and im going malacca tmr!!
chiong ah~!

22.12.08 | 12:01:00 AM

Saturday

I went to forum perdana over at Expo and volunteer there. &~ took pic with Hafiz.

haha! it was a great event. but organisation wise theres rooms for improvement.

And in the midst of syarahan, suddenly pakciks2 from MHDS carried a girl out of the Hall.

And i ran aft them haha!! Luckily I had such similar cases before over at Silat Comp.

The girl suffered knee cap dislocation after a fall in the toilet. So her family decided to cab down to CGH. there were also muslimah who were sarat mengandung. I am seriously scared, what if they give birth suddenly haha! reached home around 1 plus am.

Sunday.
Outing with Alpha!

I think ive found the missing piece in me. Throughout this year, there was a phase that i went through without my usual self. It seems that ive lost somethg but i am not sure what. & at that moment, I tend to be quiet, diffident and sometimes, its hard for me to think wise and sensibly..

After joining VIP, ive "regained consciousness" and realise that its not the end, and its time to pull up my socks and move on. so yeah! the outing was great. and no doubt i should say, Alpha have the greatest mentors(: (hadi sir pls dont kembang ah.. haha!) they were very spontaneous and caring too(: I am really touched by the letter. and yeah! i need to buck up, alot of things ive missed due to the injury..

so yeah below are some pictures taken today.(:

Ya Allah. Permudahkanlah

perjalanan dan cabaran2ku.

berikanlah aku kekuatan dan keimanan

yang cekal untuk menuju keredhaan mu.

19.12.08 | 10:57:00 PM

Oh yeah im back! but still gotta long way to go.
had loads of fun over at KL.
and i seriously miss ALPHA. hahaha~
met some of sahabat ikim (institute kefahaman islam malaysia). they very cute! told them to meet at town area and in the end they waited 3 hours for me at hotel lobby. and we only chat for 15 mins and snapped pics. hahaha

Like father like daughter.

Sahabat ikim. - they waited for me just to take pic. =X

Secret Recipe-ing.

15.12.08 | 10:20:00 PM

alhamdulillah. ive successfully went through VIP10/09
I should say its a wonderful experience and theres so much to learn.
it did not really go successful as i injured myself twice on the second day.
and based on my degil-ness. legs keep swelling. haha. perhaps i pushed myself too hard.

and so today left campsite earlier to meet Bu Yanti.
i sprained my right ankle but she said it was the left which is "injured".
she said my condition was really bad. i dont know what she means lah.
and dad, very cutely. after we left campsite he keep saying; "...ahh, kan ayah dah cakap, baca ayat kursi, tempat tu keras...."
and he keep repeating that the whole day and even keep emphasizing that the campsite should change location.

Back to the camp story. I really like Exercise Humanity.
It seriously a test for us. although, at times we administered the wrong evacuation techniques or even wrong first aid treatment. and this was when perhaps i pushed myself too hard and injure my leg even more. I was unable to be a useful aider thus i carried some bags to move on the journey until there was a point of time, i cannot walk anymore. in the end, i was being evacuated to command post by stretcher. and there were instances whereby my batchmates needed to carry me. i seriously want to thank them for that. oh yeah, i should recall a scenario which my mentors brought up during debrief. when i was injured, i was asked to be seated and upon arrival of bumboat to ubin, Ben said, "do you want me to cradle carry you?" i was stun!
haha i declined his offer and he held me instead. Hadi Sir and YingQi Ma'am can still do a
re-enactment >.<

and yeah, the number of casualties was tremendous. I should say it might be due to the amount of rest cos most of the casualties were having giddy-ness and nausea. I am really looking forward to our first outing as a batch / group.(:
& i am starting to miss someone. haha!(:

11.12.08 | 2:37:00 AM

Happy birthday to me(:
alhamdulillah on 9dec, i turned 17 years old. oh well, based on islamic calendar(:
a day after raya haji~

anyways. today had meeting with alphas(:
did the flag and went to army market with ben and jingkai

so train-ed home alone. changed MRT at JE.
suddenly, at bukit batok while i was talking to sister on phone, the guy beside me threw folded paper at me. i nearly freak-ed out at him for littering and the paper hit me. but we alighted from the train. thus when i reached yewtee, i nearly threw the paper. but too curious, i opened it.

OMG! it was written; his name and number.
should have shown him the screensaver on my hp. hahahaha(:

funny sia. i was like super shock-ed to the max (and walked home with baims shocked face) and once i reached home showed bro.
not like usual saying from him;"is he blind?"
but today different abit, he said.."hes a spy..."
thanks alot ar bro. haha.

Anyways below are pics of me and sis during raya.

7.12.08 | 4:08:00 PM

Ahamdulillah, grandad's out of hospital(:

Tomorrow's theres meeting.
but my parents, haiz keep emphasizing on hari raya.. whats the big deal about going to the relatives house when its not even normal hari raya. i would rather stay at masjid and see the kambings. whenever i pursue my passion / interest, there would confirm be setbacks from my family. i uphold my responsibilities yet.. haiz. im seriously sick and tired of everything. i tried to be good, ive tried very hard. but they simply dun seem to understand. i do things their way. divest all my ambition but, they are asking for more. is this my life or theirs?

i am also aware that some people are just bitching about me not going to school and tempted to start working. least that they know my objective and reasons.

Things just simply dont go my way at times. but i redha. cos i know that God is looking at what we do and He knows.

ya Allah, seriously, i need strength and someone(:
ive had enough and im tired of everything. should i leave?

5.12.08 | 1:12:00 AM

visitd grandad at hospital today(:
and got this kid cute super cute!
reminds me of baim. haha anyways baim is this boy below

He Acted in Cerita SMA! very2 cute la~~~~!!!! hes only 3 but very fluent in bahasa indon and good acting.(:

So yeah, this boy below, i dunoe whats his name. he came with his bantal bucuk and sat beside me with a magazine. he showed me certain pictures and trying to say something. at first look i thot thats he might be a chinese boy. suddenly, understood hes accent and pelat-ness, hes malay la. haha! so yeah. we even play memory games. and taught him simple stuff in the pictures found in newspapers and mags. he even told me; " this is dong-dong ceh" (pointing at lion dancers)

And this is my twins cousin. his twin bro is unidentical and his twin bro reminds me of zaidi Sir.. he dont want to take pic no matter what ive offer him. even my phone and lappy...

hope tmr can go visit grandad again. hope Allah would answer my prayers and let him recover soon(: